it's life. abandoning and adopting. let's keep this as a memory, of how immature i am.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Thursday, September 1, 2011
syawal the second.
We keep saying this: we miss our seniors, they are so fun.
First and foremost, I'd like to pose this question to you "Why do you miss them?". I'd probably expect answers like "They were fun" and something that goes along that line. When now, they have stepped down, you are now the senior. A new batch comes in. And you keep complaining, saying that the juniors are not fun.
But what I realised is that back then, when we came into the group, the seniors stepped forward to welcome us. They had fun, we had fun. Together. They stepped forward into knowing us. And we? We WERE the babies. So we feel sheltered. We learnt from the perspective of a senior, we get scolded for things we did wrong. But we always complained that we were always in the wrong and misjudged. So we HATED, DETESTED the act of scolding, even though it will help us in the long run (especially SYF).
Now, they are not literally gone, and hence only able to watch us from afar. They've got other priorities set on the table. One year is almost up. And I didn't see that initiative to talk to the juniors and STEPPING forward to know them. Instead, with that baby-ish attitude, you keep complaining, saying that the juniors are bitches and bastards, rude to their seniors. In fact, this is PARTLY true. I agree, but to only a small extent. (it has been scientifically proven that the younger the generation, the rude-r they are. So we are considered a young generation, so we are also rude.)
I got to know my juniors after a few months. During that void, I felt distant from them, like they were aliens to me, or me, an alien to them. That, I can't blame anyone, cause I'm shy to talk to them. But when I slowly got to know one junior, I got to know another, and another and another.
I feel happy to go to Choir. I could easily connect to them now, except for a few since I'm still trying to find common interests. But what I don't understand is about some of my batchmates. They think that Choir is now a bore, a burden. But actually, it is NEVER a burden. When we came into Sec 1, it was so much fun and laughter, we have the PROPER upbringing. But when we started to get into the end of sec 2, we discarded that proper upbringing and become rebellious.
Some treat Choir as a place for CCA points, which I wonder why. If so, why do you even COME to school? I do not respect you AT ALL for this case. You could easily find an International school which is way fun (excuse the fees)...
Now HALF of my batchmates think choir is just a piece of shit, where rules and regulations are like poo. I'm serious. Now if you want to make choir a fun place, please, can you be PROACTIVE and make friends with the juniors? Trust me, it will be a lifetime bond, like how I am with Valerie. We still contact each other about choir matters and CSS stuff.
If you are lazy and still think the juniors are a piece of shit, you can get the f- out of choir. Seriously. You are just not mature enough to see HOW the world really is. Go back to Sec one and learn your factors all over again. Factors will make up a common number.
If you don't get what I mean, go back to primary 3.
First and foremost, I'd like to pose this question to you "Why do you miss them?". I'd probably expect answers like "They were fun" and something that goes along that line. When now, they have stepped down, you are now the senior. A new batch comes in. And you keep complaining, saying that the juniors are not fun.
But what I realised is that back then, when we came into the group, the seniors stepped forward to welcome us. They had fun, we had fun. Together. They stepped forward into knowing us. And we? We WERE the babies. So we feel sheltered. We learnt from the perspective of a senior, we get scolded for things we did wrong. But we always complained that we were always in the wrong and misjudged. So we HATED, DETESTED the act of scolding, even though it will help us in the long run (especially SYF).
Now, they are not literally gone, and hence only able to watch us from afar. They've got other priorities set on the table. One year is almost up. And I didn't see that initiative to talk to the juniors and STEPPING forward to know them. Instead, with that baby-ish attitude, you keep complaining, saying that the juniors are bitches and bastards, rude to their seniors. In fact, this is PARTLY true. I agree, but to only a small extent. (it has been scientifically proven that the younger the generation, the rude-r they are. So we are considered a young generation, so we are also rude.)
I got to know my juniors after a few months. During that void, I felt distant from them, like they were aliens to me, or me, an alien to them. That, I can't blame anyone, cause I'm shy to talk to them. But when I slowly got to know one junior, I got to know another, and another and another.
I feel happy to go to Choir. I could easily connect to them now, except for a few since I'm still trying to find common interests. But what I don't understand is about some of my batchmates. They think that Choir is now a bore, a burden. But actually, it is NEVER a burden. When we came into Sec 1, it was so much fun and laughter, we have the PROPER upbringing. But when we started to get into the end of sec 2, we discarded that proper upbringing and become rebellious.
Some treat Choir as a place for CCA points, which I wonder why. If so, why do you even COME to school? I do not respect you AT ALL for this case. You could easily find an International school which is way fun (excuse the fees)...
Now HALF of my batchmates think choir is just a piece of shit, where rules and regulations are like poo. I'm serious. Now if you want to make choir a fun place, please, can you be PROACTIVE and make friends with the juniors? Trust me, it will be a lifetime bond, like how I am with Valerie. We still contact each other about choir matters and CSS stuff.
If you are lazy and still think the juniors are a piece of shit, you can get the f- out of choir. Seriously. You are just not mature enough to see HOW the world really is. Go back to Sec one and learn your factors all over again. Factors will make up a common number.
If you don't get what I mean, go back to primary 3.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
sitting on the cold marble floor, thinking.
Have you ever lost a loved one? I find it hard, cause I know I can't bite through the pain that it gives. Maybe I am not strong at heart, since I fear the sight of blood, yet favour the smell of it. Do you wonder why the sky is blue, when the sea is blue due to the reflection of the sky? And the space is only vacuum and space particles. So where does the blue come from?
I want to express my doubts and queries on the simplicities of life, which aren't simple to some, but are just chicken feat to another group of people. Let me continue with what I have been wondering...
Why does a child's smile brighten up people's hearts while a smile of an adult does not necessarily do so? Why are we blessed with five fingers, knowing that the middle one poses a vulgar meaning? Why do girls have long hair and guys have short hair? How was this made? Is it a stereotype?
In the goals of the majority in a developed country, why is money being the obsession yet kindness in society is not being the more pressing issue? Why is sugar sweet cause I find that saying 'salt' with a tinge of 't' is more unique and sweet? Why are women not treated equal in the eyes of court, even though she is at fault whereas the men gets the tougher sentence?
These questions don't make sense to me. I'm thinking about all these although I have more pressing issues to attend to, like homework. Why are the core subjects English, Mathematics, Science? Why can't it be astronomy? Why are we based on how smart we are in academics before we are based in our talents? Why is money everything before you are able to succeed in a shorter time?
I'm stupid sometimes, especially now. There are answers to these questions. The way i phrase these questions don't even make sense. I'm typing everything in a rush.
Just hope that the keyboard won't go bonkers.
I want to express my doubts and queries on the simplicities of life, which aren't simple to some, but are just chicken feat to another group of people. Let me continue with what I have been wondering...
Why does a child's smile brighten up people's hearts while a smile of an adult does not necessarily do so? Why are we blessed with five fingers, knowing that the middle one poses a vulgar meaning? Why do girls have long hair and guys have short hair? How was this made? Is it a stereotype?
In the goals of the majority in a developed country, why is money being the obsession yet kindness in society is not being the more pressing issue? Why is sugar sweet cause I find that saying 'salt' with a tinge of 't' is more unique and sweet? Why are women not treated equal in the eyes of court, even though she is at fault whereas the men gets the tougher sentence?
These questions don't make sense to me. I'm thinking about all these although I have more pressing issues to attend to, like homework. Why are the core subjects English, Mathematics, Science? Why can't it be astronomy? Why are we based on how smart we are in academics before we are based in our talents? Why is money everything before you are able to succeed in a shorter time?
I'm stupid sometimes, especially now. There are answers to these questions. The way i phrase these questions don't even make sense. I'm typing everything in a rush.
Just hope that the keyboard won't go bonkers.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Happy Birthday!
Happy Birthday to my Dearest Singapore!
No matter how expensive travelling fare can get,
No matter how kiasu we all can get,
No matter how tired we all can get,
No matter what complains we all have,
Singapore is our home. :)
Happy 46th Birthday Singapore!
No matter how expensive travelling fare can get,
No matter how kiasu we all can get,
No matter how tired we all can get,
No matter what complains we all have,
Singapore is our home. :)
Happy 46th Birthday Singapore!
Saturday, July 23, 2011
right track baby i was born this way!
I finished watching the qualifying round of Fifa World Cup between Malaysia and Singapore... And the results were... SIN 5 - 3 MSIA
Oh well, been seeing tweets and people said that Singapore is = no originality. Singapork. Tweets mainly from Malaysians. Yeah, I agree that we have a team filled with foreigners but we can't go onto the field without talented soccer players right?
I was pretty pissed with Singapore team's position too! The defending was (fucking) horrible. Really!
All I know is: it is not safe for us singaporeans to visit Malaysia during this period of time... Tut tut!
Will go on tumblr now. :) Bye!
Saturday, July 16, 2011
just being myself
Like every other posts, I always am so busy to update.
Right now, I'm just procrastinating. While tests are coming up, I feel anxious. But I am not moving my butt to study! But I will, soon :)
The weather has been so weird. There are no clouds and then it rains so heavily. Chilly winds happen too. Now my body is reacting so weirdly to it. :( But the good thing is, my hair doesn't dry up that much. :P Though I sweat more. And that's bad cause I was born to have an oily face. So I gotta keep washing my face but there'll be a layer of oil in the next few minutes. So frustrating!
I've been cam-whoring lately. :O Okay that was very rare of me to do so since I hardly take photos of myself!
And then I've continued tumblr-ing. It's fun, looking at gifs which are inspirational. To me, finding something good takes time and I need to think a lot before appreciating something that's of value. I tweet a lot nowadays, since I hardly play any games.
This year is like a major point of my secondary school life. In secondary one and two, I never cared much about my academics. But when I saw my friends moving forward in studies, I feel like a sore loser.
So I started to pick up my old primary school habits of studying till 2/3am. It doesn't make me feel tired at all. Cause when I was young, studying was a hobby. I love to study about things not in curriculum. But now, things in curriculum are worth studying and understanding.
I heard that Cambridge University would test entry students on WHY things are not and not HOW things are done. I guess I love understanding things. I just don't want to do things and follow people like a camel.
I think making my own stand in Sec 3 is important. It's so important cause peer pressure has made some of my friends change into the worst. I just don't want to end up like them and suffer. Though it seems like I'm degrading them, but I don't want to degrade myself too. It's better to be one less, than one all.
When there is a will, there is a way. :)
Right now, I'm just procrastinating. While tests are coming up, I feel anxious. But I am not moving my butt to study! But I will, soon :)
The weather has been so weird. There are no clouds and then it rains so heavily. Chilly winds happen too. Now my body is reacting so weirdly to it. :( But the good thing is, my hair doesn't dry up that much. :P Though I sweat more. And that's bad cause I was born to have an oily face. So I gotta keep washing my face but there'll be a layer of oil in the next few minutes. So frustrating!
I've been cam-whoring lately. :O Okay that was very rare of me to do so since I hardly take photos of myself!
And then I've continued tumblr-ing. It's fun, looking at gifs which are inspirational. To me, finding something good takes time and I need to think a lot before appreciating something that's of value. I tweet a lot nowadays, since I hardly play any games.
This year is like a major point of my secondary school life. In secondary one and two, I never cared much about my academics. But when I saw my friends moving forward in studies, I feel like a sore loser.
So I started to pick up my old primary school habits of studying till 2/3am. It doesn't make me feel tired at all. Cause when I was young, studying was a hobby. I love to study about things not in curriculum. But now, things in curriculum are worth studying and understanding.
I heard that Cambridge University would test entry students on WHY things are not and not HOW things are done. I guess I love understanding things. I just don't want to do things and follow people like a camel.
I think making my own stand in Sec 3 is important. It's so important cause peer pressure has made some of my friends change into the worst. I just don't want to end up like them and suffer. Though it seems like I'm degrading them, but I don't want to degrade myself too. It's better to be one less, than one all.
When there is a will, there is a way. :)
smile to complete the dress
Some photos of me I'd like to share. :)
Just washed my face before I read a book to make myself fall asleep!
Do I look cool? No, yes, no? Hahahaha!
A nice colourful lollipop!
Yummy!
A recent photo, with the living room as background.
I look really different. I guess from the stress... My eyebags *sobs*
I look really different. I guess from the stress... My eyebags *sobs*
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
PUT YOUR HANDS UP!
Really a fun song to dance to. I'll read the translation later.
First day of the fourth week. 7 more days to Term 3... Awhhh... Just when I start to love doing my projects. Honestly NONE of the projects are done. Fuckfuckfuck.
But I'm doing it efficiently and doing my homework (almost all are done! woopie!)
There are so many unanswered questions especially Math! Sigh, I bucked up for what's going to come.
Oh well, back to work! xoxo.
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